Cogitation

Echoing thoughts, disjointed voices;

Critical audience, cynical followers;

Bond of trust fragile - easily broken, easily fragmented;

Hard work, though, never compromised...

Disappointment - a curdling emotion,

Tearing apart effort and expectation ruthlessly,

Allowing envy, discord and rancour to snake in venomously

and shred the last lingering thread of humility;

Competition turning malevolent, integrity losing ground...

A by-product of success- corrosiveness and bitterness;

Corrupting and transforming a human into a festering and rabid animal...

Cerebral Drifts

People come, people go...
They pass like a river's swift flow,
But some remain etched in memory;
Evoking confidence and provoking inspiration,
Their mere mention raising hope and its baritone...
Their friendship worth so much more than money,
While their companionship absolutely unlike any...
Experiences of such comradeship not shared by many;
Causing envy and jealousy among those who never get to partake such a unique camaraderie...

Reflections

Thinking about the past,
Musing about the future,
The present, presenting a constant reality...
The epiphanies are suddenly upon me...
I screech and rant, trying to avoid and deny;
While heart of hearts, I know I cannot lie...
Expressing truth, never ever easy;
Concealment and subterfuge, however even harder...
My reflections portraying my true self,
Blunt and brutally frank, they make me cower;
But where do I go and hide? My conscience follows me everywhere...
Into thoughts and actions that mattered not earlier;
My recriminations with self make me question my values and beliefs,
Wishing morality and integrity had shone on me before;
To prevent my unfettered life turn into an unassailable morass...

A tribute

Caught between hatred and contempt,
Harbouring rancour and detest,
Favouritism, giving way to disregard...
I failed to perceive your innate humility and tenacity...

Your victories evoked vindictiveness,
while your losses signified vindication,
Passion for one, oft leading to cacoethes of another...
Objectivity conflicting and losing against prejudices...

Change, though you brought about,
Made me see, made me reflect;
Where I was wrong, whenever I was wrong...
Repent - like I never did before...

Respect and admiration with heartfelt gratitude,
Is all that I can offer;
Profound the way I look at things now...
For, sometimes first impressions never make lasting ones...

Separation...

Absence makes the agony pour forth,
But does it make the heart grow fonder, I wonder?
Your emptiness, permanent;
Just memories left to salvage...
Nostalgia, a curse...
Makes me want to hide and cry everytime your name crops up...
Amnesia, a wanted bliss;
To forget and fade away,
Anything to make me avoid you...
Any distraction, deviation - merely to provide solace...
But nothing helps nor aids;
My quest for peace leaving me bereft...
Friends shun me, kin exclude me,
Where once I was the heart and soul;
I have transformed into an unwanted zombie!