Questions

Burning desire, raging passion...
Sincere dedication, utmost devotion...
Ruthless pursuance, relentless struggle...
Only allure - the goal; nothing before, nothing after...

Teasing pictures, tantalising glimpses...
Distracting sounds, deviating scenery...
Meddling kith, intruding kin...
Making work and focus; 
Bleak and glassy...


Mental fatigue, physical weariness...
Emotional pall, spiritual lethargy...
Gnawing irritation, grappling vexation...
Forcing to abandon, compelling to destroy;

Solutions thrive, answers abound...
Responses satisfactory, Cues reliable...
Yet, why am I stalling?
The procrastination evident, the disinterest visible;


My pick of selections were my own;
Yet they seem unconnected and disjointed to me...
Have I been wrong, did I make a mistake?
I have none to ask...except my moral sense;
A sense that has long faded like my once-prosperous serenity...

Incongruity

Mundanity seeming to confound,
Friends appearing ambiguous,
Life - perplexing as never before...
Routes starting to blur,
Overlapping, intersecting and veering abruptly,
Start and finish-lines - missing and misleading...
Choices - blinking and flashing,
Fading away as spryly as they flash,
I look out - wanting an opinion,
Battling inner and outer demons;
Yet, no one's out there...
The ball's in my court;
The irony though - my loss any which way...

Experience and Truths

I thought I could rely on them,
I thought I could believe them,
But when the trust and belief was put to test;
All broke away, severing ties and my heart...
I still see them now,
Meet them, verbalise and converse;
But my trust and faith, never ever on them...
They point at me, curse and call me names;
I am wrong, they say but are they even right?
Subjective and relative theories;
They claim to be experts, 
When I give my say, they sneer and scoff...
My knowledge about people and friends, rudimentary;
Yet with them, I thought I had my life...
 My integrity, one sided;
For they never felt that way,
Each falling upon the other to put me down....
I now know what I have to do,
Need and want to do;
I need to escape them all,
Before my mind gets corrupted and jaded by their puerility...

Looking beyond the Horizon...

Why does one get attached?
Why does one feel connected?
Why do emotions get scoured easily?
Why cannot the heart be impenetrable?

Why do the tears gush freely?
Why does the throat clog up?
Why does disenchantment set in?
Why cannot sentiments be pragmatic?

I cannot stop asking why?
I cannot stop thinking how?
I have to know, I need the answers...
But I swallow them all, as abruptly as they began...

I am complaining,
I am crying and ranting,
Yet, change choices - I cannot,
Change favourites - I will not,

You will, that's the word;

You can, that's the thought;
That's your answer, your assurance;
The unspoken promise makes everyone turn towards you - like a planet towards a star...

Vamos Rafa!!!

Victory is glory,
Defeat is gloomy,
You vacillate between the two,
Giving us glimpses of bereavement and glee...


You gave it all,
Body, heart and soul,
Nothing was amiss,
Except your physique...



Fans left bereft,
Critics left stunned,
Unexpected was the answer,
Expect - we didn't the spectre...


Bravery, hidden deeply;
Fear, shown openly,
Faith and trust, never will waver;
Optimism and hope, never will falter...


Regroup - we know you will,

With your mettle and audacity,

Rewind - though we never want,

The hurt and the pain that linger on...

Be fit, be strong;
All that we ask,
A future to behold,
All that we crave...


We know, you shall;
We know, you can;
You are the promise,
The ultimate provider of fandom deliverance...

Complexities

I tried to forget,
I tried to block,
Tried to evade,
Tried to escape,
But unsuccessful, I was...


I wanted to answer back,
I wanted to retaliate,
Wanted to lash out,
Wanted to hit out,
But circumstances, made me stop...


I tried to accept,
I tried to adjust,
Tried to walk away,
Tried to be nonchalant,
But emotions, gave me away...


I am clueless now,
I am helpless now,
Perplexed and confused,
Aware yet unaware,
But reforming is out of the question...


My intrinsic nature,
My innermost thoughts,
Actions and passivity,
Are mine and mine alone,
Compromise I can, but never on my individuality...

Rambles

Want and desire

Need and demand,

Anticipation and expectation,

Traits, common traits...

Hard to resist, hard to ignore;

Temptation irrestible;

Unreliability in one's willpower...

Satisfaction and gratification;

Never promisory, dejection looming;

Disregard and nonchalance, in complete oblivion...

Inherent nature- unchangeable and irreversible;

Animals of a different breed,

Creatures of a different kind,

Mankind- Lowly beasts of a higher creed...