Just a thought...

I keep thinking about this and that,

I wonder about the whats and the what nots...

I cannot ask my mind to shut off;

Thinking is its forte..the purpose of its very creation...

But I know what needs to be done;

What can and should be changed;

What merits a turnaround and where...

If I only I could put all these in place;

If I would be determined to want to cause a alteration...

Things would be better...or so I feel...

I wish I could have a straight forward answer;

because I think, I now know all about myself...

A variant that eternally claims,

The grass is somehow greener at the other end...

Truth and Lies

When I learnt to speak...

No one told me what to say,

What to talk and what to hide...

I learnt all by my own self;

When I grew up,

I learnt to adapt...

Learnt to lie and felt that was cool,

I said untruths and denial became my life...

Where was the truth, the atom of honesty?

There was none, but who actually searched for the same?

Things were simple and things were easy...

Truth complicated matters, did it not?

That's what I thought, what I deduced...

But then truth ended matters...

Falsification and lies ---made me lie even more...

What's better, what's not?

I am not to judge...

For I am as depraved,

As any human who took the crookedly simple lane...

Scrambles

When I struggle to remember
When I struggle to keep up
When I lose faith in you,
And when I lose faith in myself...
When I fumble on a step
When I falter on my words
When I cry over spilt milk
When I decide without thinking
When I pause without cause
When I talk and chatter,
And when I am muted thoroughly...
I always know you'll be there
Whatever I do, whenever I do...
I don't lose hope,
For I know, without hope
I'll lose my only connection with you....