Bereavement

The days hovering over,

Time, abruptly flying by;

Motions and oscillations seeming incongruous,

Normalcy appearing a duty unescapable,

Crowd milling around like a bizarre occurence,

Seeping in and out, brushing past an automation;

My speech and hearing, though dampened and hushed;

Evey deed, a banality; every action like I were a marionette...

In my mind, just one chant, just one intonation...

No blocking, no averting it; only bare acquiescence...

It has come to an end, a curtain finale to what I have held close;

My existence, my thoughts, my friends...the crux of my life,

Moving on, the next step...but I don't want to, don't wish to...

My only fear...losing even your memories - gags and agonies;

Let me retain those, treasure those and grieve for those...

With a free promise given to never wish for anything ever again...